Gym

Yep, I joined one.
LA Fitness to be exact.
I'm excited. It'll be my own, private time to feel better.
I feel better just thinking about it.
Happy timesss.

Also, Thursday is my final for Haslam. I'm positively terrified because he is one of the few professors I've had who actually expect me to memorize things. Nonetheless, I'm taking Modern English History with him Spring quarter. He is so interesting...

Other than that, things are well. I'm going to get a haircut tomorrow. Got my tax return, so now I have some money in savings. Still in love with Sean. I'm almost 21.

In short.. yay!

Dull my senses

Original post: Fuck
fuck
angry
Fucking.
Let me out of here.
Fuck this
ffkdsa.
These are the times, right here, that
oh fucking balls
I can't even write what I'm thinking here.
Fuck.
Who the fuck am I? Why am I here?
I want to be alone.

Explanation:
I fully apologize to everyone who has had to live in close quarters to me at any point in my life. Apparently, I am an abhorrent person.
If I wasn't working at 12, I'd dive head first into the whiskey in the cupboard until I could not longer see straight. For now, I'm going to have to blast music at such a volume as to turn it into an unintelligible high-pitched whine in my ears.
I really, really fucking hate myself.
But, also,
FUCK you.
I am not him.

Depressadooo

I think that
when I think
he and I are having problems
it is really just an outward manifestation of how disappointed I am in myself.

I'm going to get my tax refund soon. What am I going to do with it, you ask?
Get this:
I will be debt free :] All $1200 of it will be gone. With some left to spare. I'm planning on buying a cake and having a par-tay.
Which brings me to my next goal:
use some of it to pay for a few months membership at a gym. Safeway gets me a kickin' rad discount on an LA Fitness membership. That will totally go down.

Here's the other thing:
I'm going to get my license by the end of April.
I guess that's not necessarily a 'definite', but it's achievable nonetheless. I actually kind of have to now, what with him going to the UW this summer. That shall be fun.

Also,
he talked me into taking an animation drawing class for Spring quarter. I really want to do it and he told me that I could. That's the first time anyone has ever told me that I could do well in animation and that it was realistic to make a living doing it. Happiness.

Overall, I shouldn't be disappointed in myself. I'm doing well in school, I'm going to be debt-free, I'm going to have a little extra spending money to join a gym and maybe get a new laptop.
I think I've been forgetting my Celexa the last few days. Eeeeewwehg.
I'm hungry :[